The beta came back as 20. So that is the end of my cycle. We are really devastated, and also very pissed. How can a donor cycle go like this? If it were my own eggs, I could understand it, but this is really f**ng unbelievable.
I have to go in for more betas so they can follow me down to zero, before I can "conceive again". With no frozen embryos, and my own eggs all being no good, I really don't see how there will be anything to follow this. What do they mean by "conceive again"?
I will see what my RE has to say about this whenever I get to have a meeting with her. Who knows when that will be.
I don't even know what to say to my donor. Am I supposed to email her and tell her what happened?
I feel angry with her, maybe she didn't take her meds properly or she did something that F-ed up the cycle. Or maybe she's just a 24 year old infertile, am I the one who is supposed to inform her of this? I don't even know what to say. Am I still supposed to be grateful for her sharing this amazing gift? The gift of sucking up all my finances dedicated to this last attempt, and now I am left to scrape together money that we don't even have to try again on someone who is actually fertile and could actually help us? Yes, I guess I am an angry, ungrateful b**ch but that is how I am feeling right now. I feel like knocking my RE's and donor's heads together. I was depending on them and I feel like they really let me down. I don't even know if I trust my RE to do another cycle. Maybe I should change to someone else, or change clinics.