Thursday, 22 November 2012

34 weeks - breech position?

Things have been going fine.  I have changed my diet to keep the glucose levels in check and as a result I have stayed the same weight for many weeks now.  I am 183 lbs now, and that is the same as week 25!  But the doctor says that is ok and the baby is measuring correctly.  However, he is in a complete breech position (I had an ultrasound yesterday, to measure the .growth).  So there is still time for him to flip back (he was in the correct position before), but if he does not move back head down in 2 weeks the doctor will try to manually flip him.  And if that doesn't work, I will have to have a c-section.  Just the day before we had talked to a doula about hiring her for the birth (she is our prenatal class instructor), so it will be a shame to have to cancel that.  But as long as the baby comes out healthy, that is all that really matters.  I am not one of those people who will not feel like a "real woman" if I don't have a vaginal birth, with no drugs.  I don't really care, I just want whatever is less risk for the baby and myself.  A c-section has a longer recovery, so it is not ideal, but it was the way that I was born, so I am not that against it.  And the thing about the doula is that it is quite expensive, so I just want to know if we're hiring her or not, since it is $950 (includes the birth, a visit beforehand, and post birth visit to help with breastfeeding, etc), and if I have a c-section I will not need that, except maybe some post-care.  I do think having a doula would be good emotional support if I had to do a vaginal birth, since the prenatal classes got me a bit worried (after watching the movies of childbirth.... oy!) and I know I will be afraid since I have not been through it before and don't know much about it. 
There is some stupid stuff at work going on, like now with our union job action we are all going to be receiving letters of reprimand in our file for submitting "incomplete" report cards - our union directed us to write only the marks and one line of comments on each page, instead of filling up all the boxes with detailed comments.  We are supposed to grieve these letters, and I will have to find out more about how to do that.
However, I have only 16 more working days until my leave starts.  So I need to start packing up my personal and valuable belongings in the next few weeks.